The dreaded meltdown…
We all have them, right?
I’m certainly not an exception, and I had a bad one a few weeks ago.
I had just finished one of the most fulfilling years of my life. I should have been on top of the world. Instead I felt the ground shattering beneath me.
My whole routine had fallen apart, I stopped eating on a regular schedule, my sleep was all over the place, and I lost all feelings of motivation and purpose. I so badly just wanted to feel connected again, to have that sense of belonging. I felt like all meaning in my life had evaporated.
I lay on the couch crying, feeling terrible about myself. My old anxiety started creeping in. I knew what I needed to do. I needed to get quiet, turn inward, and meditate. But I couldn’t.
I started thinking of myself as a failure. There I was falling apart and totally unable to follow my own philosophy. As soon as I thought about my philosophy I remembered that food is its foundation. I had forgotten that step.
Food as the foundation…
Deep inside, I found a willingness to gift my body with nutritious warmth, and made myself a cup of miso soup. I immediately felt the shift in my body. It started to calm down and relax into the turmoil. As I shakily sipped my cup of soup, I started thinking of teeny tiny things to be grateful for. I was grateful for that cup of soup, shelter on such a cold day, and the ability to be vulnerable with myself.
At that moment one of my good friends texted me and asked me to put out good vibes for her as she had just finished up at a job interview. Without hesitation, I started focusing on her and wishing for the universe to give her this new opportunity.
With that small act I realized that I had been letting myself get engulfed in total selfishness. Putting my energy towards someone else helped me snap out of it. There was more going on in the world than just my emotions. There was purpose. And with that I decided what my goal for each day of 2015 would be.
Very simply, I want to be happy every day.
How does making happiness your daily goal change your life?
I know it might sound like an impossible feat – life is a crazy roller coaster after all. But just because life is a crazy roller coaster doesn’t mean you can’t learn to ride those ups and downs. I really do believe it is possible to be happy every day. Happiness is a choice, so until your ability for free will is taken away from you, it can be done.
With happiness as your daily goal, everything becomes really simple. It becomes a matter of asking yourself, “Do I want to be happy?” Slowly you release the false ability of others to have control over your happiness. You let go of the idea that your happiness depends on external circumstances.
How does this relate to the meltdown?
Had I just asked myself those 6 simple words, I could have immediately taken accountability for how I was feeling and decided YES I want to be happy. There is nothing stopping us from being happy except for ourselves. So the next time you feel yourself being overcome with emotion, stress, and hopelessness, ask yourself that question and choose yes. Put the power back in your own hands and empower yourself to create happiness from the inside out. Happiness is like a smile – it spreads. Open yourself up and welcome the good into your life.
I’m not saying to not give yourself the time to let it out, or cry if you need to, but know that there is a way out and that way out is through you.
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